Does it ever happen?
Does it ever happen to you that you've been sad for too long and then there comes a moment that makes you laugh, laugh really hard, and then you just remember what it is to be happy, to be genuinely happy. You appreciate that moment so much because you have been feeling nothing but anxious and numb of days. You are laughing, you are laughing so hard. And you want it to stay for a bit longer. You are in that moment, living, appreciating, wanting it even more, but you are also subconsciously preparing yourself for the latter. You know this won't last. And the feeling that has been haunting you for days, would come back again. And I think this is the worst thing that can ever happen to anyone. Finding moments that you could hold on to, using it as an escape, hoping it would heal your wounds, being in a moment, yet trying not to let it go because you are too afraid to go back where you were, finding yourself in tears while laughing, happy and sad, both, because you know you have cr...